| random random entry. the first one in 24 weeks i think it said. |
[03 Dec 2007|01:50am] |
i love my life.
im sitting here unable to sleep because im coming to terms with the way my life is going.
and thinking how happy i am.
a week ago i had over a thousand dollars to my name.
now i have 500.
maybe.
ive spent so much money on travel.
at first i was like damn.. there goes the money ive been meaning to save.
but then i realized
shit. money is money. you can always get more.
im going home on tuesday. back to washington. and thinking about that makes me so happy i could cry. i cant wait to be around my sister.
friday ill be back in my hometown for 6 days.
everett here i come. i get to see my best friend. and i cant fucking wait.
and justin will be spending 10 days with me from the 28th to the 7th of january!
i cant wait.
in three months ill probably be gone again if justin and i stay the way we are.
Ill be in indiana attending beauty school. living with justin while he works in a salon and i train to work in one
after school who knows. florida maybe for a while if things with him and i stay like they are. I want to live places i have never lived. so far: Washington, Oklahoma. hopefully Indiana, Florida, and chicago at some point in time. im young. nothing is holding me down. my family is so spread out. washigton. utah. oklahoma. california. montana.
i cant sit still. especially when im so young and able to do this.
money is so small when you think about it.
all you need are the essentials and you can do anything with it.
i want a story to tell. and so far i think im doing a good job at starting one.
so i sit here and think.
fuck.
i really truely honestly love my life and where i am going.
i love what i am doing.
I love who i am seeing.
I love who I am becoming, even if others dont.
I love where I have been.
I love my way of thinking.
I love what i have planned.
I love what i havent planned that will just happen.
it feels like anything and everything is possible.
and its the first time is a while i have felt like this.
im coming home and its making me feel like I can do anything.
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[12 Jun 2007|05:35pm] |
high school is over.
goodness. Its amazing how fast time flies. I remember going in to highschool thinking i was so grown up. so darned cool. and when a junior and a senior thought i was cute, damn did i think i was hot stuff.
i remember hating alyssa cause she had the same hair as me, and i remember liking good charlotte. man was i hardcore.
but all that is over. :[
im going to miss it. in fact i already do. My life has changed so much in such a short amount of time. and is only going to continue changing. Things cant be the same forever. i have to learn to embrace and accept ho i have become, who i am becoming and where my life it taking me.
i am leaving lots of people.
there are a couple i will moss tons.
ONE i will miss the most. she knows who she is, and chances are you do too.
i have one thing to say. i hope to come back. I will miss you, and i love you.
it sounds like im dying, but moving 3000 miles away is almost the same.
and most of you know, i am horrible about keeping in touch.
hoopefully it all works out.
scratch that.
it all works out. it will cause it always does.
this is soo random, cause there are so many different things on my mind.
im not quite sure what i am thinking.
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[19 Apr 2007|08:33pm] |
Myspace.
what a thing.
A beutiful thing.
it brought a mother back to her daughter.
Thats right.
my mom found me.
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[27 Mar 2007|04:50pm] |
goodbye internet.
goodbye livejournal.
goodbye myspace.
goodbye brickfish.
goodbye eekline.
goodbye purevolume.
im done with it all.
i will use my email,
and start using deviant art more.
but thats it.
im getting rid of everything else.
i dont need it.
and im so happy.
it feels sogooood!!!!!!
and i am proud of myself.
the end.
good bye.
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[13 Mar 2007|04:40pm] |
the house is empty and no longer ours.
cleaning it out last night was depressing.
we had so much stuff. sooo much filling that house.
i never thought it would be empty.
but it is.
things are in storage. we are renting a house on grand.
3 blocks from the school.
i miss our old house. it was comfortable. and familiar.
i miss the cats.
Marcy said we couldnt take them.
and she wouldnt take them to a shelter.
we just left them.
they are probably waiting on the doorstep wonderng why we wont let them in.
upset that they havent seen us.
if anyone wants a cat or two.
take them.
i dont want them left.
it makes me sad. they were my favorite. and now they will suffer outside, feeling abandoned.
blah.
im going to talk to marcy about going to florida for spring break. kyla and i get the weird feeling that she will say go ahead....
i dont know why.
hopefully she will. it will give me a break from this place.
from stress at home.
plus, ive never done anything for spring break. it will be a first.
my fingers are crossed and my hopes high.
anyways. this will be the end of this entry.
they are few and far between now a days.
-Kayla
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[09 Jan 2007|03:11pm] |
i got my cell phone.
and..
we are starting to pack.
Yay for loosing our house and having to move. But ya know what?
im not as upset as i should be.
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[02 Jan 2007|05:19pm] |
First of all.
Hello livejournal.
Second, Claire!!!!! Im sorry again for saturday night.
ill feel bad for waking you up and throwing up all over your floor.
Erin, you too, im sorry i woke you up.
Im not drinking for a while.
Also...
I dont know, i had something to say.
but i just forgot.
Must not have been to important then.
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[07 Nov 2006|04:35pm] |
Dear everybody,
please take the time to read this.
I have some things i need to tell everyone about. i need to fill in the people who actually take the time to read and reply to my random posts, that happen only once in a while.
Yes, I am meeting a guy i met online.
and yes, i understand where everyone is coming from when they say its a stupid idea.
see it from my perspective.
Just because i havent actually seen this guy in person doesnt mean that he will turn out to be a crazy 40 year old perverted mask murderer.
it just means that i havent seen him.
i have talked to him
and gotten to know him better than i know most people here.
Its barely different than meeting people in person.
Just because you have seen someone doesnt mean that they are decent. it doesnt mean that they wont turn out to be completely weird.
and Im sure you have hung out with someone you havent really talked to or gotten to know.
or else you wouldnt know anyone.
you took the chance to spend time with the person. you spent time, in person with them, before really knowing them.
its the same with david, except i got to know him before i met him.
im not going to be stupid and meet him all alone, all by myself.
Im going to be smart about it. just in case.
I just want you to see that its not that big of a deal.
I am going to meet him
he is going to be here in Nov. 15th at 2:15 pm.
he is coming up here for my birthday.
he is planning on moving up here this summer.
im not saying that you have to be completely happy with my desicion.
just understand.
Know where i am coming from.
be happy that i am happy.
I am extremely happy.
Love
Kayla.
So, Nov 15th.
anyone wanna drive me to the airport? i'll hella pay em.
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[20 Oct 2006|05:22pm] |
3 1/2 weeks and he is here.
omg.
yea, im excited.
I wish tierney was going to be here.
i love that she totally supports me.
and him.
and i love that they talk
and she trusts him.
she wants to meet him, and i want her to.
its funny how much closer we are, now that we are so far apart.
and i love that too.
i love everything right now.
i am in an insanely good mood.
hehe.
3 1/2 weeks until i am 18.
gosh.
Nov. is going to be an amazing month.
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[28 Sep 2006|04:24pm] |
mmm... CE.
i dont like it.
and im hungryyyyyyy.
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[26 Sep 2006|03:03pm] |
dear livejournal
I miss you alot. its been forever since we have really talked, and i miss it.
i think i shall be visiting you more.
the end.
Love, your friend
Kayla Ayrn.
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[22 Sep 2006|03:48pm] |
i screwed myself over this time.
im losing one of the most important people in my life.
and its all my fault.
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[07 Aug 2006|12:30pm] |
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i am in spo-compton.
aka. spokane.
visiting my sister.
mwhahahahhhaaa
i dyed my hair too.
its pretty sweet. but not as sweet as my sisters face!!!!
sorry.. she is sitting next to me.... reading over my shoulder. shout out to my homie. ya know? yyyaaaaa hurrrrrr?
rawrrrr mwhhahaha.
yea, im full of it.
not shit you silly goose.
energy.
duh!
and potatoes.
yummy.
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[25 Jul 2006|05:13pm] |
so im getting a tat on my 18th....
without me mum knowing cause i cant get anything like that until i move out according to her.
buuuut, im gonna get the outline of a scorpion (for scorpio) in the inside of my hip, i guess you could say. like, in that ticklish part where your leg attatches to your body.
yea. im mega excited.
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[28 Jun 2006|05:59pm] |
home alone till friday.
call me
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[19 Jun 2006|06:19pm] |
i saw my fosterparents for the first time in 9 years. they came up from oklahoma for Tierneys graduation.
tomorrow is the end of school.
wow. it went fast.
im gonna be a senior. amazing.
my sister is leaving.
not so amazing.
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[15 Jun 2006|08:15pm] |
video production final today went very good.
we cleaned. and in my cleaning, i found an old minolta slr with two lenses and a flash.
he told me i could have it.
so now, i have a new old camera. its pretty sweet.
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[30 May 2006|05:15pm] |
i feel crushed again.
i dont know if im gonna be able to get all my grades up before summer. its coming pretty darned fast. im gonna try super de duper hard though. i would really like to be able to do something this summer, for the first time in a million years.
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[22 May 2006|06:31pm] |
1.Who was your first prom date? i havent had one.
2. Who was your first roommate? Tierney. does that count cause we are sisters?
3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time? umm....
4. What was your first job? havent had one, unless you count babysitting
5. What was your first car? i dont have one
6. When did you go to your first funeral? long long ago
7. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown? 2
8. Who was your first grade teacher? Mrs. King, in oklahoma.
9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? To Oklahoma
10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with? a month ago, with a boy. Chris, i got you beat.
11. Who was your very first Best Friend and are you still friends? Courtney Kaylor. no.
12. Where was your first sleepover? somewhere in oklahoma
13. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? No one.
14. Whose wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid, groomsmen, flowergirl, usher? never taken part.
15. What is the first thing you do in the morning? wake up.
16. What was the first concert you ever went to? Rush
17. First tattoo or piercing? ears, in 2nd grade
18. First celebrity crush? ohhhh... thats tough. i have no clue
19. Age of first real kiss with tongue? freshman year
20. First crush? i dont know
ps. if anyone has a pic of me from the retro concert, i would like one porfavor.
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[17 May 2006|08:02pm] |
i went shopping and got two new shirts and a new pair of shoes. i would post pics, but MY CAMERA BROKE.
the end. im angry.
p.s. i wore a skirt today. Erin, you missed it.
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